December 25, 2007
Fake and Real
Time has passed but the healing hasn't begun...
I see a fading picture of dreams and wishes.
Of past atrocities that lead to a conflict that apologies could not mend or ease.
I want to know if I can live without you.
Without this constant guilty nagging from the apprehensions I bear.
Trying so hard to remember how to completely forget.
Only to be reminded...
As I hear a man humming a love song with a smile on his face and such feeling...
Blissfully aware of his feelings and certain of his convictions and commitments.
It makes me wonder...
...wonder what could have been...
when I should be wondering what will be.
Angels may guide...
but I seem to have lost mine
Going my own way in reckless seclusion far from healing...
Instead, cloaked in counterfeit strength.
Real enough to make my dilemma unseen but hopefully not unnoticeable.
Until the day where I believe in my own lies.
Convinced of my own joy.
Others immersed in true uncertainty while I bask in false reality.
I see a fading picture of dreams and wishes.
Of past atrocities that lead to a conflict that apologies could not mend or ease.
I want to know if I can live without you.
Without this constant guilty nagging from the apprehensions I bear.
Trying so hard to remember how to completely forget.
Only to be reminded...
As I hear a man humming a love song with a smile on his face and such feeling...
Blissfully aware of his feelings and certain of his convictions and commitments.
It makes me wonder...
...wonder what could have been...
when I should be wondering what will be.
Angels may guide...
but I seem to have lost mine
Going my own way in reckless seclusion far from healing...
Instead, cloaked in counterfeit strength.
Real enough to make my dilemma unseen but hopefully not unnoticeable.
Until the day where I believe in my own lies.
Convinced of my own joy.
Others immersed in true uncertainty while I bask in false reality.
Posted by yabs on December 25, 2007 at 10:36 PM | Comments
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