yabs

Rain-drenched
As the elements Pour
Finding uncorrupted purity
In each tear of the crying sky

It blankets this world
My world...

Long forgotten wonder
Envelops my tired soul
It cools my body
It soothes my spirit

The sun shines through
Creating perfect harmony...

The raindrops on my head
As the sun caresses my face
The water at my feet
But warmth all around

Contrasting...
Complimenting...

My eyes closed
My lips form a smile
I breathe in
I exhale

I am Aquarian, the water element
I embrace the sun, my friendly opposite

Lay-down on the grass
To better feel this gift
Cold and Heat
Both personal needs

I opened my eyes
Screamed so very loud

To release
To alleviate
To give something back
To express

yabs

Faced with difficulty
As resolutions seem further away
Doing what I cannot explain
Becoming who I used to hate

My personality comes into question
Turning into a hypocrite
An irony of morals and of emotions
A libertine; a debauchee

I dare not go this path
Nor trek aimlessly and restrained
in the endless mountains of loneliness
Only to remain solitary and wistful

Yes I have Fallen,
Numerous times for the wrong people
Left unheard and unrequited
Perpetually in search

Rarely liked because of who I am
Blunt and purely candor
Inadequate and a penury
Emotionally tempest-swept

I give effort to distance myself
But the more I try to,
THe more it feels so right
Despite my trampled morals

I feel selflessly-selfish
A immorally moral
Deciding between the lesser of two evils
Both evil nontheless...

yabs

Not Bashing on you...

just posting long overdue stuff.

The truth is only true
To those who know of it
Your lies still dominate
The image of everything

Still striving
For self-preservation
At the expense of everyone else
Selfish and immature

Never veracious
Always a prevaricator
And an extreme recreant
Aiming for the image of "maturity"


A jade, a concubine
A mistress, a flamboyant deceiver
Yet ultimately, nothing more
Than a child who fears her mother

A fear so deeply rooted
That she needs to lie
And pretend that she has learned
All for herself, all for expedience

To make it seem like she's a victim
Surrounded by evil
Shamefully, she will never learn
Or tell the complete truth

It fills my heart with sorrow
That she will never clear my name
Or come clean and change
Or ever learn true regret

All for the name of selfishness
All for the preservation of her image
All for the fear of repercussions
Never for truth, love or family...