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They talked to me about her
I was delighted
There was an inner exhuberance
That made me jump for joy

he posted her query
I fully understood
despite my eagerness
I knew it was too soon

o my amazement she stared
This shot of pain enveloped me
It covered me
Showed me the truth

I was not ready
Nor confident enough
So I said "no"
"Regretfully, No"

Few times in my life
Would I be complimented
As charming and interesting
Few times would I decline

With all this regret
I stand by my "No"
With all this loneliness
I choose to just go

Because I've decided
And will stick by my word
That never again
Will I experience nor give-in to hurt

Apologies came
As I said "no"
I choose to be alone
Until I feel whole.