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Part Three

(Forgiveness)

To see you this way, knowing that you lost your way makes me feel bad. I cannot imagine the confusion and worry you must be going through. Though you've hurt so many people including those who you never wanted to hurt in the first place, I believe you still have a chance to become better than this.

Looking at things from a different perspective. I cannot help but feel sad. We were once part of one big family after all. You deserve better, but until you realize that, you'll never be where you should be. Love yourself to a point that you become happy. But love yourself enough, to a point that you prevent yourself from becoming selfish.

There are so many sides of me that fill me with mixed emotions. The truth hurts me, the anger corrupts me, but forgiveness sets me free.

I have written all of these with sorted feelings, simply because I needed to let it out. For a person to move forward, he must undo the chains that bind him and release the weight that holds him back.

So I wish you all the best. I congratulate you on the decision you have made. I will not trouble you with these issues (as long as you and everybody involved, do not trouble me... Lets face it, I have been reeled into this several times already). You have a new life that you seem to like, and I need to start creating a life beyond this for my own.

I would not say "I forgive you" since I do not know if there is anything I have the right or even the business to forgive. All I have for you is the wish that you find your way and the hope that you reach what you deserve to attain. This I will constantly pray for... Because that is the only way I can forgive myself for all the events that rooted from my selfish weakness and monumental failure as a moral guide.