yabs

After what seemed like an eternity, tonight is different. In the years that have gone by I have slept a disturbed sleep. Tonight is the first night I began to see; The patience you had in waiting and watching. My aches and the pain I thought was truly hell, have faded into nothing. The years you listened and knew when to be there I regretfully took for granted. The nights I would lay here alone... you were actually there.

Though I will never fall or become prey to illusions again, I see in you what is real. I apologize, years ago I saw nothing in you but a friend who I never cared for beyond what I thought it was. To hear you and feel the truth you hid for so long, makes me bow in shame at my utter stupidity.

As I sleep tonight I now know what vigilantly waited for me to become ready. I look back at the things I overlooked. So much wasted time has elapsed. These things I will never overlook again. The tears you wiped away, the advice you've given, the hugs I never noticed...

Tonight's the first night within the pool of nights that I can call true sleep. As we lay there in a state of calm uncomplicated bliss, my dispassionate heart has been stirred awake to the new, the sweet and the serene. I slept... I slept a normal sleep. I missed this.