yabs

At the brink of tears
Every night
Thinking of you

Wondering how you are
Who you're with
And if you even think of me

It has been sleepless nights
And helpless mornings
Since I turned away

I look up
Towards this aimless ceiling
Unable to think straight

Hoping that each beep
From the messages in my phone
Comes from you

Only to be faced with the truth
That you care not for me
And that I am nothing

My disappointment mounts
Knowing what I know
And what I hear

I told myself
Never to shed a tear
For another "what could have been"

Still, I am here
In deep depression
In my vulnerability

Men should not be like this...
But I am everyday,
Since the day I turned away

Oh God please help
In my attempt to forget
For I miss her so much

I know I am insignificant
In this grand scheme
Of fate and life

Unrelentlessly helpless
For she thinks nothing
Of me.