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Learning the lesson
By repeating the mistake
Continually subjecting myself
To the raw agony of caring
Defined simply as stupidity

My heart is lashed
In each and every instance
Every distasteful story
Every unstoppable thought
All the facts immersed in paranoia

Always believing
That I can move on
Convinced of my strength
My unbreakable resolve
This hardened soul

But at the very sight of her
I return to my prior state
My knees buckle
My resolve shatters
And my soul melts

Mistake after mistake
But still no lesson learned
Only hope pushes on
The hope that this time will be better
Maybe this time it will be right