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How did it come to this?
Happy once depressed the next
Afraid of being alone
Terrified of being tied down

A racing heart
A fear of the coming unknown
Trembling at change
That may not even be real

So many thoughts
Resisting needed order
Paranoia, neurosis
Possibly schizophrenia

So many answers
Can't even pick one
Turned from happy
To unbearable depression

I sit in solitude
Even as I ask for help
Give me my sanity
Return my health

This unexplainable episode
Deeply rooted in the past
The author of my phobia
A shadow permanently cast