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Left in confusion
At how things transpired
At how it has come to this
So familiarly undesirable

Through all the effort
The explanations and the candor
That has led to success
at least until today

A year's worth of emotional peace
Ruined by the daring but unprepared
Dashing my tranquility
Leading me to tearful remorse

Forcing me to re-live my pain
Simply for her misplaced hope
A love never to bear fruit
A dream I should not be part of

So here I am
In my unexpected retreat
Punishing myself for a transgression
That I tried to avoid since the beginning