yabs

Oh we kiss in joyful passion
So often yet still starved
The warmth of each other
Comforting us every night

The laughter of our contradictions
We so painstakingly learned to cherish
The changes within us
We willingly took on

As we are the ones
On display to the masses
The pair of hot and cold
Moving ever slowly forward

This was all likened to a dream
A pleasant one for sure
Future uncertainties come
Scarred from the doubts of the past
(But a present seemingly blissful and true)

A day without you
Leaves me lost
Haunted by friendly betrayals
A day without you because...


...because you're with him

yabs

Every man wants to see their woman
Seemingly unspoiled
By the daily corruptions
Ever-present in life

Every man feels the need
To assume that his woman
Has a clean and impeccable past
One that is uneventful

Devoid of rowdy nights
Free of wild and basal instances
Mediocre and meaningless partners
If any are even present

But what we want now
Was not important then
In a past within pasts
One we were absent in

So our demands, our insecurities
Our pain and jealousy for "what was"
Is pointless and selfish
And serves no productive purpose

Our resistance for the past
Is the hindrance of our present

yabs

I miss not having these thoughts
Endlessly running through my head
I miss the sweet peace of sleep
Without lying awake in contemplation

I miss not having this fear
This lingering threat of betrayal
The secrets hidden
Eventually leading to attraction

Where the innocent gestures
From the course of friendship
Conversations frequent and plain
All heading to what I know is inevitable

I miss truth
I miss honesty
I miss honor
I miss happiness

yabs

You are the first thought
In an otherwise uneventful day
The only fear of loss
In my recent realizations

The only partner
In every imagined kiss
The only pain desired
In every heartache

The only happiness
Worth calling "bliss"
The face behind my tears of joy
Or smiles of hidden sorrow

My hands shake
And my words fail
Actions played over and over
Yet never leaving my mind

You are my shadow
The best lingering darkness
in days of absolute light
You are both my love and hate

I find that you are the everything in my entire "nothing"