yabs

All she has is a smile
One I valued a little too much
Trying to look past
A decade of irreconcilable differences

Gifts and understanding
Amid broken promises
Encouragement and assistance
Amid pointless irresponsibility

A hundred chances
A hundred-one failures
Pure verbal effort
Marred by conflicting actions

Obsessed with looks
Dependence on friends
Thoughtless comments and words
Twisted to your advantage

Is this anger my fault?
Am I truly wrong?
Am I supposed to let it happen again?
I ask you...

Am I supposed to stay?

yabs

A life away from fear of lies
Beyond dramatic settings
Where there's nothing left to give up
But everything to gain and regain

Smiles that don't mask the hidden
Laughter unforced as distraction
Now "Me" isn't an extension of another
Just a pleasure of the simple

Applauding myself for this strength
One I used to fake but never had
No looking over my shoulder
For any mistakes I might commit

Loneliness in a positive light
The world - a friend - an audience
I, a participant of life
Yet a wallflower to fate

Ever shy to the vulgarity of my being
Aggressive against the meekness I hide
Free to relearn, to mature
To move forward... To live.