A second a day
Of a smile taken back
From missing to missed
From bliss to memory
What was real
Of a love professed
Once in view
Now fading fast
The soulful minx
My heart learned to crave
Turned by temptation
In to this ocelot of confusion
And for this I waited
Bore myself, my vulnerability
Just for her to disappear
Without words nor reason
No more… I won’t be a fool (again)
Are you happy now
While you're with him
Knowing he's lying
To keep you there
Are you happy now
While he sweetly whispers in your ear
Knowing that those very lips
Uttered such harsh words before
Are you happy now
While your heart has taken him back
Knowing that he's hurt you
So many times over
Are you happy now
While you're locked in embrace
Knowing he ran away
And left you to fight on your own
Will you be happy still
While you swim in confusion
As one that truly loves you
Has been hurt so badly...
...and has long gone away
In the bright days
Of stolen Joy
And the Peach-hued agony
Of what really is
I walked alone
Thinking she would come
Hoping that my faith in people
Would finally be rewarded
That the risk of falling
Was worth the risk of being saved
To overlook and be deaf
To the signs and words around me
As I willfully gouged my eyes
To achieve this blindness
Only to see clearer
The truth I thought I could avoid
Certain of what I felt
Ready to trust in honesty
The raw fuel of my downfall
Mocking me relentlessly
My love wasn't a mistake
But my trust was...
And I stood there, a stranger
Trying hard not to look
Trying desperately to resist
Only to fail in my predictable weakness
A hundred knives stabbing by chest
A thousand blunt objects taking my breath
A million memories driving me insane
For the beauty and love once mine
My knees weaken from the weight
From the images of you and I
Images that haunt my dreams
And fill my thoughts in the waking hours
Though I have the strength to move on
And the wisdom to know defeat
I also have the foolishness...
The foolishness of a hopeful heart
A heart that arrogantly has answers
To all these impossible questions
And so I linger in hope and ignorance
Though I should know better
Though leaving would be easier...
A profanely unfamiliar anger
That replaced the regret in my mind
From promises unfulfilled
And tears unwept
As true as the light
Which lingers as I look away
As precious as the morsels of minutes
I used to cherish with you
Believable and blissful love
That was true but only in passing
With every fraction of a second
Seemingly shorter… quicker…
Leaving nothing for myself
But the loathing of a thousand misfortunes
I can hear its laughter… this cursed fate
Grinning, giggling, mocking my sacrifices
And though I cannot laugh back
For this pain is quite great
I shall not be here for long
Never your paramour ever again
Because I’m not worth just a stolen moment
In the middle of my night
As I slowly got inebriated
I thought of you
At the peak of my enjoyment
When I was certain I was okay
I thought of you
And my world became lonely
Dead to the happy masses
Numb to the infectious bliss around me
I remembered your name
Your lips, your voice
Bringing me to tears
Lost in the complications
Of what was... and what is
I remembered YOU
The only one I fell for
The single joy I can't forget
My peach paramour
And so my night crashed
My joy extinguished
Because I remembered you... you you you
