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January 28, 2008

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Many people who have had bad experiences with love say that its a virus, that its the worst feeling and they wish it never happened... Most people will speak out of sheer agony and misery, not knowing or even intending to feed their bitterness.

I used to be exactly like that... But I have learned:
If something so terrible has ever had such a profound effect on a person's personality and how he views things from then on, I believe it was worth all the hardship... Life's lessons can only be taught through experience. Once the lesson is over, a new one begins. The next more difficult than the last, luckily, past experiences have already made you smart and strong.

More than that, everything that happened in between from the blossoming of your emotions up to your painful realization is notably worth the undescribable agony. Because undescribable agony roots from unfathomable love.

Posted by yabs on January 28, 2008 at 02:34 PM | Comments

January 28, 2008

Happier Days

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In my undying self pity and as I wallowed in depression, I taught myself to overlook blessings and focus on potential problems.

Formulating solutions to things that might never happen in my lifetime. Always trying to be prepared for whatever comes my way.

In my moment of weakness, I attempted to look back. There I saw, as clear and as radiant as the sun, were images and memories.

All showing smiles and carefree bliss. I needed a minute to sort my feelings, there it was, true happiness. Long forgotten, but real nonetheless.

As luck would have it, I managed to get my old computer to work. Here I was, looking back in time. Back to the days long gone.

I viewed old pictures, watched old videos and listened to old music... It took me back to a time of happier days.

Days when I did not know what I knew now; simpler, easier days. It was a treasure trove of priceless memories.

It was all as real now as it was back then. I saw true friendship, reaquainted myself with my roots, felt old emotions, gained old knowledge I had forgotten about.

I realized from that point that no matter how much I complained. How sad I am now... And how hard life has become...

I was truly happy... Not once, but millions of times.

Posted by yabs on January 28, 2008 at 02:37 PM | Comments

January 28, 2008

When Goodbye Became Real

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New horizons opened
As I sensed your vagary
No interpretations needed
In its pure simplicity

Not the change I had hoped
For so very long
But a change nonetheless
To someone distant and strong

Not sad nor disappointed
At how things turned out
But not happy or content
On how things came about

Slightly alarmed
Concerned for the most part
Reminded how significant the past is
When aiming for a fresh start

But road heading back
Has now been closed
And path I see ahead
Now more clearly exposed

Goodbye to the happy ending
that was not meant to be
Greetings to the dawn
And the possibilities for the free

First step done
Just a few more to go
All this had happened
Because fate said "No"

Soon all promises
Will fade or be forgotten
A result of all decisions
We both have chosen

Posted by yabs on January 28, 2008 at 02:42 PM | Comments

January 28, 2008

After It All (in dialogue)

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Made a Poem that was so hard to express... decided to make a micro-script about it instead.

Daniel woke up to a day no different than the ones before it. Except today he plans to pour his heart out to his Ex-girlfriend. Daniel had been with this girl longer and deeper than any other woman in his life. They we're not the perfect couple but they were quite a match. They had just separated a few months back. Daniel goes to see Patricia (his ex-girlfriend).

DANIEL: Hi Trish...
PATRICIA: Hey Daniel, waddaya doin here?
DANIEL: Nuthin much. Actually came to see you. I thought of you and I wanted to check if you were doin okay.
PATRICIA: (smiles) That's so very sweet of you! How long has it been... 3-4 months?
DANIEL: Yeah, around that time.
PATRICIA: Seems longer.
DANIEL: I guess... So, been seein anyone?
PATRICIA: Nope. Not even anything remotely close to that.
DANIEL: I see (discretely grins).
PATRICIA: So what's on your mind?
DANIEL: Well, uh... (puts his hands in his pockets) ah, uhm... (blushes, bows his head and smiles)
PATRICIA: (laughs) Hahaha, come on, spit it out. After all we've been through, you get shy now? (taps him by the shoulder)
DANIEL: You're right.. You know what, I'm going to just come right out and say it.. (teary-eyed) I actually woke up today and realized, I missed you... So very much!
PATRICIA: Aww, I missed you too! (smiles) I missed you everyday for four months... I missed you so much, I cried about it. (tears start to build up)
DANIEL: Really? That's exactly what happened to me today! (inches close, gives her a tight and heartfelt hug) I'm so glad you missed me too!
PATRICIA: Yes... I really did miss you! All the way up to yesterday... (gently pushes him back, turns around and leaves)

Posted by yabs on January 28, 2008 at 02:46 PM | Comments

January 28, 2008

Lost in Victory

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Sifting through the debris
Of a past, supposedly forgotten
Disturbed by the fathomably unseen
Disquieted by caterwauling visions

Losing all inspiration
Simply defeated by victory
Mocked by success
Of which is unexpectedly unwanted

All this time
What was thought to be sought
Was wholly misconstrued,
Revealing a frailty so foreign

Unheartfelt but requisite prostration
Ensuant to a new understanding
Leaving nothing but inglorious savvy
And putrefying promises

Cognizant of the idea
that love is not for everyone
Not because of the "falling in"
But more on "falling out"

Swearing yet again
Renouncing this formidable emotion
Knowing one day it will come back
And ultimately win again

For the hundreth time
As certain as day will come
This defeat will leave its mark
A cairn to something great wasted by characteristic human pride

Posted by yabs on January 28, 2008 at 02:56 PM | Comments

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Entries for January, 2008

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Happier Days

When Goodbye Became Real

After It All (in dialogue)

Lost in Victory